This week I thought it would be fun to make Dorie’s Sweet and Spicy Nut recipe. It’s holiday time. I was dreaming of having a wonderful cocktail and a bowl of these nuts. I had a feeling these nuts would be delicious. Yes, I was right!
Today my mom came by. She was going to stay with my kids as I had a dinner to go to tonight for my daughter’s school. When my mom saw that I was making aperitivo style nuts, we both agreed that a good cocktail was in order. I like cooking with my mom. She has some good ideas.
I was planning to bring these gorgeous nuts to my sister-in-laws house tomorrow night for their Hanukkah celebration. She knows I will bring a cake. But nuts? I wanted to surprise her.
While I was at dinner tonight, the manager of the restaurant called me to come over to the phone as my daughter was on the other line. Of course, I got that sick feeling. The one time I don’t have my phone on the table “just in case”. What could it be? As I was walking, I shrugged it off hoping that she was just arguing with my mom over using the computer. My daughter was hysterically crying and let me know Grauntie Sheryl just died. Sheryl was my sister-in-law’s aunt. She lived in NY. She was a lovely and very kind lady. She wasn’t our aunt, but she became our aunt. She was a part of our family. My heart broke hearing my daughter’s tears.
I returned home and was quickly enveloped in their tears. My mom’s and my daughter’s. My little guy not really understanding what happened. We all got in the car and rode over to my brother’s house. I felt guilty. Guilty that I haven’t seen my family in days. Sick thinking how quickly life can change and what am I always rushing off to do? Is it really always so important?Why didn’t I take a moment to call Sheryl today and wish her a Happy Hanukkah?
Seeing my brother cry over his aunt-in-law crushed me. I reached over and hugged him wishing I could make it better. I can’t even explain my sorrow for what my sister-in-law was feeling. She had already lost her mother 20 years ago. This was devastating.
Hanukkah is their special holiday. A holiday I learned all about through their celebrations these last 11 years. Instead of lighting candles with them tomorrow, they will be arriving in NY to say good-bye to sweet Sheryl. I wish I could too.
Enjoy every moment. I’m not going to preach. Just a little bit of preaching: really, pause and be thankful for all you have. Call your mom and tell her you love her. Don’t text when someone is telling you a story. Take deep breaths and enjoy each instant.
I don’t understand how a life ends suddenly and unexpectedly. How do I explain it to my child so full of deep questions?
Right before we left my brother’s house tonight, my adorable little niece said they saw a really bright star shining in the sky. She thought maybe that was Grauntie Sheryl watching over them. I told her I am certain it was her.
I wish I could share this fantastic recipe for these nuts. They were super tasty and so easy to make. I really enjoy learning new recipes from the great Dorie Greenspan. I think you should join us on Friday’s with French Fridays with Dorie!
To my friends that celebrate, I wish you a joyous and Happy Hanukkah!
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This is how the nuts looked before I baked them. The sweet smell of cinammon was making me anxious to open the oven door and grab a few!